Caitlyn Siehl

“Do not fall in love with people like me. 
I will take you to
museums, and parks, and monuments,
and kiss you in every beautiful
place, so that you can
never GO to them
without tasting me
like blood in your mouth.
I will destroy you in the most 
beautiful way possible.
And when I leave 
you will finally understand, 
why storms are named after people.”

There are days when your blankets will weigh heavy on you and press you down hard against the mattress. When a fiery ball fills the sky beckoning a new day ending the darkness of the night. And you will not relate to it or appreciate it because you cannot identify with it. When your insides are the color of coal and unwelcome water stings the corners of your eyes. Days when the lump in your throat threatens to constrict your airways. Your eyelids heavy with sadness will be impossible to open and life will feel like a dark void. Like you have personally experienced days before anything came into existence. A dark wide and unending nothingness. You will want to surrender yourself to it, to let it consume all of you. When those days come allow yourself to feel the darkness, surrender yourself to the darkness only for a moment. feel the numb void of purposeless being because when you do that, once you have explored that kind of darkness, lifelessness, defeat, you will realise that living is far more enjoyable regardless of the struggles it entails.